Monthly Archives: January 2015

Sunday Service and Seventeen

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Today is my only child’s birthday.  He turns 17.

Seventeen.

I can’t explain or express how the concept of those years is inexplicable to me.

Seventeen.

He was just baby.

This birthday has me bittersweet.  It feels like a milestone, and a smack of recognition that, soon, he will belong evermore to the world.

I can hear him upstairs, now, singing, filling a new fish tank with water.  His birthday dessert is just out of the oven, cooling a bit. Awareness of all this makes me so content.

And yet, here I am, full of this odd combination of feelings:  nostalgia, pride, heartache, love.

I have no words of wisdom to share.  The fact is, parenting him has been easy.  HE has made it easy.  He’s a great kid. My husband and I often joke that the Universe recognized us as lazy parents, and gifted us our son, accordingly.

Or, if you subscribe to the notion that children-souls choose their parents, then…well…I am humbled and awestruck.  Because I can’t imagine what good I could have done to deserve this amazing being that is our son.

So, for today, I am going allow myself to be nostalgic and proud and heart-ached and loving and loved.

And so, so very grateful.

Seventeen.

Seventeen.

Sunday Service & Following Your Passion

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Is there something that you do really well?  You might do it often, and receive praise and acknowledgment for it.  Others may rely on your for it.  You excel, and share your expertise, and use this talent to help others.  Maybe you’ve made a living from this. Or, it’s what your “known” for.

It’s the also thing that causes you dread.  You want to stick forks in your eyes before you do this thing that you’re great at one.  more. time.

You yearn for something different.  You want to play and experiment and take risks that feel like fun.  You want to create something new.

This “something new” is probably not anything new, at all.  Think back to a time in your life when you felt alive, and sated.  What were you doing?  How did you spend your days? What got you excited?  Hint:  it’s probably the same time you felt healthiest and most energetic.  Days felt full and interesting.  Finding balance seemed almost easy.  You probably craved learning.

Can you remember that time?

Go back there.  DO that.

Because doing what you’re good at, at someone else’s beckoning, will never compare to doing what lights you up, at your own.